We Will Wait

I hope by now if you’ve been reading for a while anyway, you know I don’t mind talking about things that may seem, um, unpopular.  some find this refreshing, but I’m sure I’ve put others off.  this is one of those entries that might seem a little too real, but, well, that’s what I’m here for!

So, I recently came across a fb page of a movement started or influenced by Tim Tebow.  Now, I’m sure he’s a great guy, but I don’t really follow the personal lives or news or gossip about the famous people of the world.  but this guy seems to be pretty cool.

anyway, the movement is called We Will Wait.  it’s kinda like the True Love Waits movement from the last decade.  truth is still the same, God prefers us humans to wait until marriage to have sex.  yep, I know, easier said than done.

here’s my story (yep, gonna be real here).  I grew up a ‘good girl’.  In fact, if you didn’t know better, you probably thought I was a true Christian in high school.  I wasn’t until I was 20.  I had the moral code thing though, never did anything ‘bad’ and such.  but trust me, if given the opportunity, I would have.  I was a virgin until I was 16 when I had a night of bad choices. Then remained ‘inactive’ until I was 19.  I was in love, honestly, I believe I thought I was.  We were going to get married anyway, so why wait.  FYI – that’s a lie from the pit of hell.  how do I know, because we didn’t get married.  I got saved shortly after we broke up and I made the decision then that I would wait, again, until I was married.

That was 13 years ago.

no really, 13 years ago.

13 years is a LOOONNNGGG time.  TV, movies, books, society don’t make chastity easy.  I sometimes need to wash my brain out with soap (aka God’s Word).  I’m not perfect by any means.  I struggle with my thoughts and passions, but to be able to give my husband the gift of purity, even if it’s ”just” born again purity, means the world to me.

And I’ve kept that promise.  I actually haven’t even dated anyone.  Plenty of crushes, trust me, PLENTY!  but none worked out, most of the guys even got married or are in serious relationships now.  might be one of my super powers… I get a crush on a guy and he suddenly finds his true love.

alas, it’s never been me.

so, why am I spilling all of this????  because I want people to know it’s possible.  Not in my own strength, believe you me.  I’m learning to not stir up passion before it’s time… just frustrates the waiting period even more anyway.  I now desire for my future marriage bed to be pure.  I am a born again virgin.

God says that when we become a Christian, when we allow Jesus to be Lord and Savior of our lives, we become a new creation.  this is in 2 Corinthians 5:17.  This was the inspiration for my butterfly tattoo.

So, there it is.  I’m a born-again virgin who’s 33 years old.  I’m still gonna wait until I’m married to have sex.