beauty

Trying to think of something inspiring to talk about… but I guess it’s not really inspired if I have to think about it, huh?

Anyway here’s what I’ve been struggling with, maybe you can relate.

Beauty.  or being pretty.  I’ve felt very fat and ugly lately.  I’ve gained a lot over the past 2 years, after having lost quite a bit, so I’m feeling down about that.  I don’t think I’m vain, but maybe I am.  I don’t wear a lot of makeup or wear the latest fashions, but I worry about what I look like.  Or sometimes, just don’t care at all.  Depends on my audience I guess. 

I know what Scriptures say, beauty and charm are fleeting, true beauty is within, He made me wonderful and He thinks I’m beautiful.

Maybe it’s because I haven’t dated in 14+ years, or that I didn’t hear that I was pretty growing up (don’t remember it anyway). 

Most likely it’s because I haven’t let my true worth settle in who I am, not what the scale says.

I’m bright, I’m talented, I’m loving, I’m loyal.  Not bragging, these are just some of my qualities.  Things I should focus on, and not my jeans size!

But it’s so hard in a society that puts so much pressure on what a person looks like.

Still struggling through this, will probably write more about it later.  Meanwhile, pray with me for a breakthrough.  Thanks!