It’s so hard to start over. I keep thinking about how far I’ve fallen with the weight loss/fitness. I’m slowly losing again, but still. After losing so much and gaining it back plus some just sucks. Plus my fitness level was getting really good, now it sucks too.
OK, enough of the pity party! I know where I can be, I know it’s possible to surpass that! I can do this, but only with God’s help and with the encouragement of friends and family.
I’m not trying to lose out of vanity. Yes, I’d like to be thinner, but I want to be able to walk for more than 10 minutes without feeling worn out. I want to get back to where I was when I completed that 10k (6.2 miles) in 2 hours. Pfft, I want to be better than that. Why? Because it means that the MS and depression aren’t winning this battle!!!
I’ll admit, I’ve let them have a few rounds. It’s time for the fitness and wellness side to come back fighting! It won’t be easy, nothing really worth it ever is, but it will be so worth the pain and sweat.
One day at a time, right?
What are you struggling with? Can I encourage you in any way?
Bragging on the Lord 
You can totally do this! And knowing you have arrested the gain and shown it who’s boss should be your point of encouragement. And remember, the whole process is a journey. Take the time to think about food, your relationship to it, how you use it, etc. Learn about yourself, your body, your mental state, everything! And journal, journal, journal! You’d be surprised what you learn about yourself along the way that will make this success a permanent one! Sometimes it’s the simplest things – like if I eat the two to four fruits a day that I’m supposed to, my sweet cravings are under control and I’m am able to fend of a feast of junkfood. And, knowing that I eat for anxiety (like waiting for something that’s coming in an hour…or ten minutes…I’m horribly impatient) allows me to choose a different way to deal with that anxiety – chomping gum or finishing a small unfinished chore that’s been bugging me – hey, that’s like two successes in one! So take the journey slowly, and LEARN along the way – what you learn will remain with you and give you success! Go for it!
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