trusting

I was recently challenged in my trusting God for healing me.  When I was diagnosed with the fractured ankle I said that I was believing and praying that I would be out of the air cast/walking boot in 2 weeks.  Up until a day or 2 before I was set to go back to the doctor I believed He would come through.  Then I was reading in a theology book about why people don’t get healed when they ask for it to happen.  That sent me plummeting into a pit.  I’ve been asking for healing from MS for 6 years now and what I was reading was saying (or least I think it was saying) that healing doesn’t come because of unconfessed sin or unbelief.  Ugh!  If there is sin in my life, when God reveals it to me, I repent and we move on.  Granted, there are somethings I struggle with on a daily basis, but I’m listening to the Holy Spirit the best I can.  If I have sin in my life that He’s not pointing out, we can’t deal with it, so why would He hold that against me??  And unbelief?  I believe God still heals people like He did in Biblical times.  I know He can heal me, I just don’t understand why not now?

So all that going through my head, I started doubting He could/would heal my ankle, or the MS for that matter.  then I’m at the doctor’s office and long story short, my ankle is healing nicely and I’m out of the boot!  Just in a brace for a few weeks.  As I’m sitting in the office I hear God ask why I doubted Him.  Ouch…

He also told me last summer that He’s healing me of MS…

Oh yeah…

“don’t fixate on some silly book, remember My promises”.  He didn’t heal Job right away either, and He used all that to bring glory to His name – He can do  the same with me.

Sometimes He doesn’t heal us right away.  Sometimes it takes a process.  The crack in my bone is filling in well, I haven’t had any new MS symptoms in years.  He is a God that still does miracles, may He open our eyes, ears and hearts to see them!!