In 25.5 hours, I turn 44 years old. I don’t really feel any sort of way about it, just another number. I mean, there are things I thought I would have experienced by now, but anytime I’ve ever tried to push those things and not wait on God’s timing, it’s never worked out (or blown up in my face). “Are you really going to trust Me?” is a question I hear Him say to me a lot. Not in a condemning or mean or exhausted way, more of loving and parental way. It’s not always easy, there are many times I question if there’s more I could/should do, but when I listen to Him, really listen, I know He’s big enough and loves me enough to tell me.
If you’ve been with me here for a while, you’ve probably read that I don’t do resolutions. Historically, I set goals. This year I’m focusing on 1 word. Diligence. I plan to dig into its definition, synonyms, and antonyms throughout the year and put into practice what I learn. I currently have it written on a dry-erase board by my kitchen sink, which so far has at least prompted me to wash the dishes every day. Small steps. There are areas of my life that I really struggle in this area, we all do, right? I don’t purpose to be neglectful and beat myself up after I don’t meet some crazy standard that I make up for myself. There must be a healthier way. A few of the areas are finances, cleaning, exercise, writing, and being on time to things. Some of those are broad topics, but, again, small steps.
- a: steady, earnest, and energetic effort: devoted and painstaking work and application to accomplish an undertaking
Hm… yeah, there will be some steady, devoted, etc. SMALL steps!!
BTW: there are things I hope to do this year. Skydive in CO because I am finally under the weight limit (!!!!!), go on an international missions trip (destination TBD), and scan all of my pictures (there are 1,000’s in totes because I’ve been a photographer since high school, wish me luck!)