• August 2016

    Been a trying month. Have really missed Fitz. It was a month ago yesterday that I put him down. I’m starting to get used to him not being here though, and that makes me sad again. I’m not ready for a new one yet though. I got a tattoo of…

  • Mid-July 2016

    Hi everyone. I know it’s been awhile, but things have been rough. Let me explain… So my last day at the plant was June 24th. I spent most of the next couple weeks attempting to get caught up in my homework. Didn’t do too well. Haven’t received my final grade,…

  • This is Amazing Grace

    As I was driving to work this morning, I was ruminating on past mistakes. Never a good thing. I felt so much guilt and shame over choices I’ve made. Things I said I’d never do, yet went head strong into them. Things I had looked down on other people for…

  • Beginning of June 2016 #Japan #connection16

    Written on the plane on my way home Saturday… What a whirlwind trip! Went from St Louis to Honolulu, to Tokyo, to Honolulu, now on a plane to San Francisco for a short lay over to make it home in St Louis late tonight. All in 2 weeks. My body…

  • End of May 2016 #Japan

    Greetings from Japan! Having a wonderful time with my friends. Spending time with Janine who I’ve known for 17 years, Vicente who is her husband and I’m getting to know, and their beautiful 2 year old daughter. And meeting new friends too! They walk and take trains everywhere, which I’m…

  • Beginning of May 2016 #changes

    Hi everyone! So I definitely cannot say that my stress level is much lower (see last post for details). First off, the place that I have worked at for 15 1/2 years is closing its doors 😦 The economy got the better of us. So I’m still there for a…

  • Late March 2016 #stress

    I am so stressed out right now. Like I know I’d feel better if I could just cry, but I’m dry. In times like this, I should feel more drawn to seek out God. But I’m not. I feel it’s just an obligation to read my bible and pray, but…

  • Mid March 2016

    Two posts in one month, wow, I haven’t done that in a while, huh? At the beginning of the month I was getting a MRI and had my first panic attack in one. We only got 15 or so minutes into it and I couldn’t handle it anymore. My doctor…