Yep, it’s been 4 months since I met Mike. I still feel like I’ve known him so much longer than that. Can’t believe how hard I’ve fallen in love with him in such a short period of time.
But when it’s right, it’s right.
I know I’ve probably said it at least once on here, but I couldn’t imagine my life without him. He’s everything I needed, but not so much what I expected. God’s ways are so different from ours, and I have no regrets in loving him and giving him my heart (actually my heart belongs to Jesus, so however that all works…).
Anyway, so my mom had a heart attack last week. She’s OK now and at home, but it was a rough few days. She’s too young for that kind of thing. Her blood pressure and cholesterol are normal, but she had smoked since she was a teen. She’s since quit, which I’m very proud of her for. Tough road ahead, but thank God she’s still with us.
This all makes me want to take better care of myself too. I know I talk about that a lot. Through things Mike has said to me and what God has been speaking to my heart, I’m really starting to feel comfortable in my own skin. I need to workout and eat better for health reasons, not so people will like me or someone will love me.
That’s a hard lesson to learn. A lot of damage has been done over the past 30+ years, a lot of wounds to be healed. But with God, and Mike and other friends, I know it’s worth the pain of being healed.
Went to Mike’s church for a couple of weeks. Even though it’s a different denomination (still Christian and Bible based), I’m starting to like it there and feel welcomed. I’m not saying I’m leaving my current church though. I have a place and a family where I am, things I’m not inclined to give up. Time will tell though, I’m open to where ever the Holy Spirit leads me.
China’s coming up fast, but the funds are not. Trying to not get discouraged. God’s made a way every other time, why not this time? The deadline I put out there isn’t until July 15th, so there’s still time. (If you’re interested in more info on this trip or how to give to it, please go back a couple of posts).
I should get to bed. I’ll talk to you all again soon. Take care.